We are Falling apart
Texts are getting shorter! Long conversation. Late night chats. Everything about us is falling apart. Do you feel that.. I have started walking away from your thoughts.. Do you feel it.. I just don't want to save me But I want to save us! You are still staying apart with your ignorant self. I am dying inside. You are hiding behind your self-conscious mask. I am losing you.. No.. I never have you.. You never let me, have you.. My concern for "you" makes you feel strangled.. You are getting annoyed with my texts.. I am good.. Maybe I am too good for you.. Or Maybe I am going over the board with your thoughts.. I don't want to bother you.. Don't any more.. I am letting you go slowly.. You never belong to me. I should stop pretending like it doesn't hurt. It does hurt. I did cry in the night. Does it hurt you! Or it's just me!
Dear Sneha, I am an anxious jellybean too. I know what happens when failure looms large. All I can say that this is just one exam. Conquer the next - life is a series of exams (successes and failures). All have a binary output and as long as you don't let one exam be a pitstop for anxiety, you'll keep surging ahead! Fighting!
ReplyDeletethank you so much for encouraging words! thank you sooo much..
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