Dating.. Loneliness..

So, It's been six months, I have started dating Him, Mr.Mukherjee. 

And I am on the verge of my overthinking syndrome. Yess. I like him.. I like him a lot.
But.. Yess, ” But” comes along with my likeness for him.

From the very beginning, he always keeps it real. He doesn’t carry a “dramatic sweet boyfriend” fragrance with him. He is really raw; I mean he never tries to fake it. I have fallen for him after seeing his passion for his work.

Then, from where “this but” does come from?

He is a Private Person. He carries his world with him but he never let you to enter into his world. He wants his private space. His mysterious aura comes from this. He keeps the door closed for everyone. He hates it when anyone tries to invade his space.

He is like, deep clean clam water, from the surface it looks like everything is calm and quiet but underneath this calmness lot of things is going on and he doesn’t want anyone to know that.

I RESPECT THAT.

I never ever try to invade his private space, though I have asked him a few times and he firmly stood on his ground “not to tell”..


He has that “runaway” thing. It’s not like he is running away from me.. It’s like he is recharging himself.


Sometime he doesn’t message all day.. He just vanishes into the air. Then suddenly he appears from nowhere. He is not like the one, who calls you every single day or messaging you every hour. He calls you when he feels and becomes sulky if you don’t pick up his phone call..


Yess.. His this “running away” thing, gives me time to do my work.. I got enough time to do my studies assignment peacefully with concentration.


BUT….


There are sometimes or moments when I literally want to talk with him or I want to spend time with him but he is not there. Sometimes, he does make me feel “lonely”..


My cousin told me, “you are doomed; you have started feeling lonely after dating for just a few months.” 

What should I do!!!


His honesty attracts me.. It’s not like that he becomes a changed man after sometimes. But he always likes that from the very first day.. 

One day I was angry.. I was done with him and I ignored him all day. It hurt him badly. For the first time, that day, he showed me his vulnerable emotional side. 

Even after emotional brutal fight, things remain unchanged. I have just realized, “he is like that, he doesn’t play any dating games. He is serious but he doesn’t want to get emotionally strangle.”

 He likes me but he makes me “lonely too.” 

But .. 

Then what am I supposed to do! 

Waiting for him with patience, that’s all I can do..

I don't know how long I can do that..