We are Falling apart

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Texts are getting shorter!  Long conversation. Late night chats. Everything about us is falling apart.  Do you feel that.. I have started walking away from your thoughts.. Do you feel it.. I just don't want to save me But I want to save us! You are still staying apart with your ignorant self. I am dying inside. You are hiding behind your self-conscious mask. I  am losing you.. No.. I never have you.. You never let me, have you.. My concern for "you" makes you feel strangled.. You are getting annoyed with my texts.. I am good.. Maybe I am too good for you.. Or Maybe I am going over the board with your thoughts.. I don't want to bother you.. Don't any more.. I am letting you go slowly.. You never belong to me. I should stop pretending like it doesn't hurt. It does hurt. I did cry in the night. Does it hurt you! Or it's just me!

HIM, Mr.Mukherjee


 

For me, Love is highly overrated dreamy exotic feelings… love is kind of poetical illusion, not a practical thing ….  Well, that’s my expressive thoughts.

After long turmoil, a long argument battle I have agreed to meet with Him. Yeah, my parents kind of pushed me.    

 Maa told me, he was going to call you in the morning so be prepared yourself. I didn’t know what she actually meant by telling me to prepare myself. NO CALL ..I gave my mom my typical annoying look and she ignored it gracefully. Then around 8:30pm, he called.. and we had a brief talk. We agreed to chat.  I don’t know Why but his voice gave me chills, like wowww...

Then we had a brief meeting at our place, oh my god, I must say from the very first day he gave me that Manly vibes. He was calm quiet and mysterious.  During the time of leaving, he turned his back and gave me such a meaningful expressive look and  that totally seemed like a scene from Drama and I almost choked up in surprised.

Our first date, surprisingly, I felt really comfortable around him. His serious mysterious aura didn’t bother me. I suddenly turned into a chatterbox before him. I was surprised with myself, I kept telling myself to SHUT UP but I couldn't control my gibberish mouth talk... He was amused...  He listened to me every word every sentence... It seems like after a long time, finally, someone is listening to me. He noticed my every move every gaze with his amusing eyes.

Everyone questions me,  why do you like him? 

At first, I am really interested in him. I want to know him.

After witnessing his dedication to his work, I become an admirer of him.

He never twisted his words.. He never tries to please me with sweet talk. He doesn’t have sweet teeth.

He doesn’t not wake me up with sweet morning messages.  He prefers to wake me up with weird WhatsApp emoji.  Yeahh..

He is weirdly Raw.

He talks on your face, he bluntly tells me, not to disturb him when he is working.

He doesn’t have any dreamy hero qualities.

I feel safe around him, I have shared my anxiety issues with him.  He didn’t freak out after learning about my anxiety issues. He calmly tried to understand my situation and he didn’t show sympathy to please me.

 He is self-independent soul but he is caring.

 He is not at all expressive, and it irritates me.  But when he expresses himself, he does that with honesty.

 He makes me mad sometimes. I yell at him and he never thinks twice to admit his mistakes.

 He hides the emotional side of him behind his cold mysterious serious look.

What surprises me most, I can actually yell at him,.. Generally, I swallowed up feelings and suffocate myself and give myself sleepless night..  I don’t know why or how that happens but I fight with him or lock horns with him effortlessly.  


Now back to the first question, do I like him?

I have started liking him. Every day my liking for him is growing. He is growing into me.  


He looks like an interesting book to read. Every day I read him. Every day unfolds new chapter before me. Some chapter irritates me Some chapter amuses me Some chapter makes me cry Some chapter makes me happy.


He is indeed a suspense thriller scripted character who brings emotional comic relief in my life with his witty side.



                                               
 

                                                     ðŸ‘€ Mr Mukherjee 👀


 

 

 


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