From the Corner of My Diary

feeling numb ...  I don't know what am I feeling right now... I am agitated.. I am upset.. I am irritated.. I am angry.. I am ok.. I am good.. I think I cannot sum up my whole feelings right now in one simple word.. everything is running in slow mode.. my present days are playing an only melancholy tune. .. sad songs become the anthem of life.. my father's ranting spicing up my foul mood.. my emotions..my feelings..  I don't know exactly what is happening to me... Right now, I think it's better for me to give up..  Yes.. giving up on my feelings.. stopping myself from figure out what am I feelings.... I think it's better for me to stop scrutinising my thoughts.. my thoughts are right now scattered..  my scrambled thoughts are running wild..  and I have no energy to sort out my thoughts..  it's better for me if I should take a rest.... I don't want to feel anything.. my thoughts are like missing puzzles right now..  Peace! Inner Peace matters most. Peace come

So, It's been six months, I have started dating Him, Mr.Mukherjee.  And I am on the verge of my overthinking syndrome. Yess. I like him.. I like him a lot. But.. Yess, ” But” comes along with my likeness for him. From the very beginning, he always keeps it real. He doesn’t carry a “dramatic sweet boyfriend” fragrance with him. He is really raw; I mean he never tries to fake it. I have fallen for him after seeing his passion for his work. Then, from where “this but” does come from? He is a Private Person. He carries his world with him but he never let you to enter into his world. He wants his private space. His mysterious aura comes from this. He keeps the door closed for everyone. He hates it when anyone tries to invade his space. He is like, deep clean clam water, from the surface it looks like everything is calm and quiet but underneath this calmness lot of things is going on and he doesn’t want anyone to know that. I RESPECT THAT. I never ever try to invade his pri